Thursday, December 6, 2012

Burning My Plow

What is the plow that I need to burn?

God is calling me - calling each one of us - to something new.

But before we can find out what that wonderful new thing is, we have to burn the plows of the past  as Elisha did in the Old Testament.

I long for the joy and freedom of the new - the true call of God's desire for my life - but I find it so hard to burn the plow of approval and people-pleasing that has driven so much of my past.

I like to make people happy.

I like to be "nice".

I don't like to make waves.

I don't like conflict.

I don't like change.

I like easy and comfortable.

I just want to be a sweet and agreeable Southern girl.

Isn't that who the world wants/needs me to be?

That may be convenient and pleasant but somehow I don't think it lines up with the greater life that God is calling me to live.

I pray for the courage and the faith to push forward through the resistance, the fog, the darkness and the doubt,  trusting that my obedience will lead me into the glorious light of freedom and truth.